Wednesday, April 13, 2011

So Long, Farewell I think this blog is done. It was fun while it lasted. And I think I'll start blogging again sometime, perhaps a journal of writing this summer, or something. But this blog and I are breaking up. It's been real.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Processing

This week has been...a lot. Horrible. Tragic. Never-ending. Exhausting. Just plain sad.

On Monday, the chair of my department--my boss, my friend, a wonderful man--was diagnosed with a brain tumor. He and his family are still making decisions, but it looks like surgery in Ann Arbor in a week, with chemo and radiation to follow.

On Thursday, another faculty member--my office next-door neighbor, my friend, a wonderful woman--was admitted to the hospital with pregnancy complications. She had an emergency c-section, delivered a beautiful baby boy named Solomon, and died on Saturday morning.

It's the type of emotional blow that leaves you physically aching.

I've cried. A lot. I've talked. A lot. And yet, I'm not sure I'll ever be done processing her death.

But tomorrow, I'll wake up. I'll go to work. I'll walk past her office and miss her desperately.

And the next day, I'll do it again. And again. And again.

Life goes on. Even when it doesn't.

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

Poor Me/Snap Out of It!

Lots of things on my mind today, from the house to my mom, from work to class, from California to South Africa, from bad to good.

It really tempts me to have a big pity party for myself. And sometimes I think we should. We celebrate life's accomplishments and good moments. Why not party through life's terrible moments? Maybe it would make us feel better!

Or not.

Here are the posts I was tempted to use on Facebook today, but managed to pull myself back slightly:

Sarah Baar...
...is tired of her mom being sick.
...ended her day cutting a ring off her mom's poor, swollen hand, and started a new day by bleeding from her nose in the shower.
...can't stop having dreams about work, class, family, and tv show characters. Makes for interesting self-analysis, but piss-poor sleeping.
...can't decide whether to power through today or go home and cry.
...is no good when her head is in the clouds. Dark, stormy clouds.

SNAP OUT OF IT!

I'm pretty sure at this point, I need someone to slap me across the face and tell me to snap out of it. There are lots of good things in my life right now.

For example:

Sarah Baar...
...finished painting two closets last night! The most difficult closets in the house are now brilliantly white and clean! Progress!
...has such great, loving, wonderful family members. Love.
...loves her job so much. Not only does she work with wonderful people, but she gets to take a free class each semester!
...has four novels under her belt and has a goal of having a publishable draft ready by the end of the year.
...has made it through 10,238 days and she's pretty sure she can make it through one more.

So. Onward.

Friday, March 04, 2011

New Shoes and A Change?

My mom got me a pair of shoes I wanted for my birthday. But when I put them on, I just wasn't sure.

See, I have this guilt complex. I probably have two dozen pairs of shoes. So why should I add another pair?

The answer: because I'm shallow and they're cute:

On my feet:
On my desk (hey, they're clean):
As you can see, the posts for this blog have become. Well. Dull.
I can't seem to snap out of this unintelligible funk I've been in lately. I'll blame it on the paint fumes, but perhaps I just need a change of scenery. I'm thinking about starting over with the blog. Just scrapping this one and starting fresh. Maybe I'd even ask some web-savvy person to help me.
What do you think?

Monday, February 28, 2011

One More, Plus, Some Time Off

We got two coats of paint on the master bedroom this week/weekend. Here's a before and after:

Before and After
What we did: removed 3 kinds of wallpaper, spackled, sanded, primed, painted 2 coats on the ceiling, and painted 2 coats on the walls of Behr's "Dusty Olive."
It turned out really well. As we started painting, I was worried it was going to be too evergreen, but the color dried to a nice green with blue/grey undertones.
Sunday, I drove out to the house, but I just didn't have it in me. I putzed around for a while, cleaned a few things, thought about painting a third coat on the kitchen, and ended up outside, hacking the last of the ice off the driveway from the freezing rain the weekend before.
Then I headed back to the condo, edited a manuscript for a while, and watched a movie with the husband.
We're feeling close to being ready to move in, and we have a couple people lined up who would like to rent the condo, so just pray that everything goes smoothly over the next month or so, especially since my husband has started working a few hours at his summer job, and therefore is even more busy!
And, my evenings are so busy, I won't be at the house again this week until Thursday. Eek. Well, it will get done eventually, one way or the other. Wish us luck as we start the final push! :-)

Friday, February 18, 2011

More Before and Afters

Things are moving along at the house. We still need to paint the kitchen, 2nd bath, and master bedroom before I'll really feel like we can "relax" a little.

But here are a few more "before and afters."

Family room
Before and After In the family room, we painted two coats on the ceiling, spackled holes and sanded, put two coats of the same grey on the walls as is in the living room (Sherwin Williams "Morris Room Grey"), and painted the beadboard white. We still need to replace that gorgeous green carpet, so please ignore its hideousness.
Entry
Before and After



Again, please ignore the ugly green carpet on the stairs. In the entry, we
removed wallpaper, spackled holes and sanded, primed the walls, and put two coats of Behr's "Havana Cream" on the walls, and painted two coats on the ceiling. It's quite reactive to light, sometimes looking straight-up cream, and sometimes more heavily the yellow I really wanted. You can see in the "after" picture of the front door just how different the shade can be. It's quite light on the wall closest to me, but above the door, it looks more yellow. Overall, a nice, calm color that I'm pleased with.

Monday, February 07, 2011

Before and Afters
and
I Got Hacked

My dad and sister called this morning to let me know my email got hacked. Which meant my Facebook account got hacked as well. Which meant that by 8:15 this morning, I was a great big ball of sunshine [read sarcasm].

I'm hoping both Gmail and Facebook can restore my accounts, or at least shut them down so the hacker claiming to be me can stop sending emails that I'm stuck in London and I need money. Never even been to London, folks.

On a cheerier note, we now have two rooms in our house finished. Here are a couple before and after pictures.

Dining room:
Before and After Living Room:
Before and After

The dining room was a major pain because we had to remove two chair rails, two kinds of wallpaper, repair the wall where the chair rail had been affixed, sand, spackle, spackle, sand, prime, etc. (The blue in the dining room is much bluer in real life.)
The living room was "easier" because we only had to prime the walls and put two coats of white on the trim (which was previously cream) before we painted the walls. There was some spackling and sanding, but not to the extent of the dining room.
Voila. Two rooms done. Lots to go.